Happy Intercessors!
I received the most simple revelation from God this week, but I think it will change the way I pray if I can take hold of it. I discovered that all the time I’ve been praying for revival I’ve never really believed it would happen, despite all the positive prophetic words we’ve heard in this respect. In my mind I have, but really in my heart I just havn’t had the faith. What I’m wondering now is whether it is faith that affects what we see spiritually, or whether what we see affects our faith. The reason I ask is that even from being a small child I’ve always been very aware of the spiritual realm, but it has mostly been evil. I seem to have a spiritual sensor that picks up on satanic activity quite easily. Even my dreams are full of enemy attack, and I’m often aware of what the enemy is seeking to do in my life, in my church, and sometimes in my nation. However, I dont have the same acute awareness of what God is doing. This really affects my faith when I pray, and to be honest, makes me quite miserable. When all you can see is destruction and decay, and are so aware of the plans of the enemy, how do you have faith for what God wants to do? How do you shift your focus towards God? I mean, I know all this sounds really elementary, and after 18 months on Fire School I should know the basics, but there’s a huge difference between knowing it in your head, and having it deep in your heart. Part of the problem is that, as an intercessor, you’re having to continually look at the awfulness around you in order to be able to pray about it. It made me wonder if this is a common problem among intercessors, and if so, how to combat it? I felt I received my answer as I picked up a book by Bill Johnson and read the paragraph of dedication to his wife. He says of her ’she is a sign and a wonder, for she is a happy intercessor!‘. Well, at least I know it’s possible. It’ll be a journey.