Im still crying out to God to teach me to pray; for that to happen i need to listen and understand. I want to share with you what God has been wanting to share with me over a number of weeks.

” The leaves of the tree for the healing of the Nation ”

I have heard those words whispered through my ears through out the day and also at night and i didnt understand what God was saying this for until last sunday morning. I was at the House of Prayer and as  i was praying all i could see were trees standing big and strong with branches stretching out everywhere. and leaves looking as though they were ready to fall. The trees were standing by a river bed. some leaves had fallen onto the river  and the water was carrying them away. other were blowing away. and i saw these leaves as our prayers for everyone everywere.

God was trying to tell me my attitude wasnt right towards prayer my thoughts were too much on myself. yes we need to be convicted of our own sins before God can truely break us for this Nation. But that doesnt meen i forget about everyone else in the process.

God came with loving words of correction and at the same time left a gift of his words which i will keep close to my heart.

We read in Gen 2 v 4 - 10 ” Before any plant or herb had grown on the earth; and before God had not yet caused it to rain on the earth and there was no man to til the the ground a midst went up from the earth and watered the whole face of the ground and the Lord formed man and the Lord planted a garden and put the man who he formed in the garden and out of the ground God made every tree grow tor food.

Prov 11 v 30    Job 14 v 7-9       ” even if the tree is cut down it will sprout again. and its tender shoots will not cease ”

And so it begins in the garden with Adam and Eve and ends with ” The tree of life which is in the midst of the paradise of God ”

You are the bread of life oh God and we are your vessels to carry that life to share with others everywere.

I have been blessed by the confrence in many ways God wants to get to every area of my heart many times throu the confrence God was showing me how he wants to do a deeper work  One being forgiveness when Carol and John asked us to pray out and picture the times of it taking place i know God pulled down walls and when they told us to now step up i stepped up onto that platform with others and gave a shout of praise to God       All i could think is how God wants peace and unity wars to stop and it all begins on the depths of the inside

On fireschool we have been reminded of the great need to be fully equiped with the armour of God and never be without it

I’ve been reading Nehemiah 4 When Sanballat heard that the walls were being rebuilt he mocked the Jews and he looked for a way to bring confusion and destroy what had been. And further on we read they prayed and set watch. For the warning came that “Whatever place you turn they will be upon us. And further on we read because they were fully equiped they could go out knowing fully that God was with them. And all the plans of the enemy were brought to nothing. ” If God is for us who can be against us “

On Friday, Pastor Tim spoke to us about the end times and how we need to pray for Jesus to come as is stated in Revelation ch 22.

For some reason, this really freaked me out, I felt really scared and didn’t at all want to pray for Jesus to come but I couldn’t understand why because logically, of course I want Him to come!

I talked to Pastor Tim about this and as we were talking, The Holy Spirit started to remind me of when I was a child and how I had read a Bible tract about the end times and how I had taken on a lot of fear from it because all I had seen was how awful everything would be, especially for Christians and because I loved Jesus, I knew that I would be one of those that would be persecuted but I was scared and didn’t want it to happen and so in my mind, I had decided that when Jesus came back, it would be awful and scary and so didn’t want it to happen. God really spoke to me through 2 Thessalonians ch 2 v 8:

“Then the man of lawlessness will be revealed, whom the Lord Jesus will consume with the breath of his mouth and destroy by the spleandour of His coming”

He has been showing me how strong Jesus is and how glorious and how amazing it will be when He comes back, I won’t have to be afraid of the devil and what he will do because Jesus already has the victory, Jesus is so amazing and so strong that just by his very arrival and just by the act of breathing, He will destroy the man of lawlessness! God has totally taken away my fear, I can see now that Jesus far supercedes anything or anyone that is against Him and so being in Jesus what do I have to fear?

So with a joyful and expectant heart I say “come Jesus come!”

What has really struck me when researching for the night of prayer we are doing tomorrow is that all the changes that are being debated by the House of Lords seem completely devoid of any moral stance, everything is seemingly amoral. It is really on my heart to pray for our MP’s, that God would convict them dramatically and they would see this Bill in the way He sees it, that they would look at it from more than just a scientific stance, that they would listen to public opinion which seems to be against the amendments that are being debated and that they would have the strength to stand up for what is morally correct and not just vote using their heads but also their hearts.