The challenge is to draw near to him and he will draw near to us. Sounds easy but I’ve been really amazed at how hard I find this. It’s so easy to get caught up with everything else apart from seeking his face

Even on fire school you can get caught in the trap of prayer being your job, come in lay your requests down and go. I guess this is what the priests in ISrael slipped into. As I read through the prophets words in the bible the message is always the same I don’t want your sacrifices I don’t want your ritual I want you!! He hasn’t changed God is still searching the Earth for hearts that are truly seeking him.

I want to be a heart that is truly seeking him and God’s helping me, he’s just moving everything else out the way. I don’t always appreciate it at first but I’m starting to understand that it’s for my eternal good.

The reward of being close to Jesus and knowing him far outways everything else.

We’ve just reached the half way line to our 24 hour prayathon against the homosexual adoption issue and I’m still going strong (thank God!) I feel like we are certainly hitting targets at the moment and that the Holy Spirit is in charge of what’s going on. I’m having no problem praying with a sense of expectency seen as tho I will no how effective our prayers will have been in just a few hours time. I’m going to pray that God will really break me by engaging my heart more in the next 12 hours. God is going to move. Could write plenty more but I don’t want it to eat into my prayer time. See you in 12!

Wow. We’re doing a 24hr prayer vigil, for the bill that’s being debated tomorrow morning. We’ve been seeking God and pushing in for a few hours now. Just taken a mo to eat something and type this. I can feel the Holy Spirit pulling my heart-strings. I feel like we’re really digging-in to God’s heart now. It’s all up to Him in the end, we just give our willingness. Anyways, godda go…

We were asked recently about what we put our hope in. Actualy it was more of a provication.
The question came from Pastor Tim who was leading the Fire School that day. He was talking from the life of Josiah who did well in Gods sight, but did not move God to turn his judgement away from his nation. If God did not turn and heal the nation when Josiah did all that he did zealously for the lord, then why should he heal us. It’s a de-stabalising thought. But when I started to pray god gave me a revelation about his love and the only reason why he would turn
and heal us. As pastor Tim challenged us with the word, someone piped up and said, “we can’t have any confidence in anything, only Gods mercy”- Good answer.

As I thought about that comment, I found myself before the cross and saw that jesus was alone. As he cried out I saw the father turn away from him. when the lord cried out it was the desperate cry of a son to a father. When you really understand that moment you know that the reason the father will heal us as a nation is to honour the death of his son. It’s a father son thing. God adopted us through the death of his son and he will always honour the son. I really felt this and wept for ages on the floor of the HOP. I felt this was a significant day in my life because I saw the value God has placed on me. I will never be the same again.

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So, here we go… (first blog ever:) God’s doing it. What a relief! When we get near the end of our own abilities, He’s always ready to take over. Again and again, I’m finding God carrying me, bailing me, strengthening and leading me. I pray and pray and then He does stuff. Healling my heart and memories. Speaking clearer and clearer.
Part of FireSchool for me is finding what I’m on earth for, and then seeing God come through on it. It’s making my Christian walk into a running the race. Intensefying my faith, purifying Christ’s image in me. Removing the barriers between me and Jesus.
Last night about midnight, we were all praying. We’ve been impacted by people like Heidi Baker, and the testemony of God’s love in her. We were reading newspapers and praying over stuff. We realised that so much of it just bounces off the hardness of our hearts. We were interceding by faith, but knew we wanted to be personally broken-hearted. I want to actually carry the love of God to people. Anyway, eventually, God got us. He strengthened my faith and I jumped deeper into relying on Him. It was intense.
I was so challenged by what Heidi Baker said, how Jesus will do anything for yeilded lovers. I guess I’m starting to lay down my life. Better late than never. J