we had a lesson on weapons of spiritual warfare based on 2Corinthians 10vs4 and afterwards we had to pray for God to prepare us for the half night prayer meeting in which we were going to be using the weapons we had learnt about.

I didnt quite understand how fasting was a weapon and the Holy Spirit led me to Ephesians 6 vs18 “And pray in the Spirit at all times with all kinds of requests and prayers “.
The Holy Spirit taught me that fasting helps us to pray in the Spirit which is important in spiritual warfare.

Thank you Holy Spirit for teaching us how to pray.

OK So I guess you want to know what God’s been doing in my life? Well a lot is the short answer!! I’m just stopping quickly2 blog this as we are in our first 24hr non-stop prayer meeting-God is here.

God’s been teaching me about how to be so close to him that I catch His heart and His vision. Hes been teaching me to rest in His arms and be carried by Him and filled with His Love-when ur in that place you can find God’s heart and how He feels.Song of Songs 6:3 I am my beloved and he is mine. He’s has been teaching me that I need to have my feet washed by Him, John 13:8 “If I do not wash you, you have no part with me” That I need to carry His Presence that comes from Him washing away the natural way my feet would walk(in terms of the direction I put my life in-the natural choices I make whether to evangelise or not, and my future and destiny) and putting His will before me. That when I surrender to Him carrying me and washing my feet I am able to love others because I am in My Father’s arms. ATM I am asking God for more compassion for the lost. I realised today my life isn’t worth living for myself-only for others. Fireschool is really finding God and what He wants-its mint!

Last week on Fireschool, Pastor Ken let us listen to a teaching by Heidi Baker. I was really blown away by just how much she loved the people of Mozambique. She was able to love them because she knew the love of the Father all around her. As a result of listening to this I made a decision in my heart and mind, that it is time for me to live, to love, to die, to love, to serve. By this I mean God has allowed has challenged me to love Him more and as a result of loving Him, dying to self, laying down my life as a living sacrifice and therefore growing in love and compassion for the lost. For me I would have naturally stopped a showing compassion for the lost, but God, was teaching me that it is not just enough to love. Instead of just loving, I felt God say that I needed to start to serve the lost, serve the unloveable, to meet needs and demonstrate love in a practical way. This day on Fireschool has really marked my life and has changed my life and the way I view having compassion and love for those who need to know what love is.

This week has taken fire school to a new level. There has been a fresh challenge to move upstream with God; to waste our lives in loving God, and allowing Him to fill us with His compassion for a lost & dying world. I have felt the conviction of God in every session - both in intercession and the teaching.

The question God keeps on asking me is simply “Will you pour your life out?” Its a day by day, hour by hour challenge that makes me squirm even as I’m writing. It is impossible to run from the conviction that God is longing to ‘love us to death’ as Heidi Baker would say! But if that’s all it remains, just a conviction, and nothing results of it… its simply a waste of emotion. It has to move me to seek His face till I’m lost in loving Him, and I live fully surrendered to the will of my Lord.

And thats where I’m at. Its very uncomfortable. My cry is to say “yes God!” To wake daily and love my Saviour. To cry out for my nation, to take his presence to those who are lost… to live poured out for the King.

Yes of course he is… but why do so many doubt and not believe? Everything in nature, in your body, in your experience of ‘coincidence’ and especially your concience points to the fact that there is an all powerful, all seeing, all knowing, all loving creator God… It is one of the most refreshing psalms to read, psalm 18, as it affirms this assertation saying things like ‘The heavens declare the glory of God’ and ‘day after day’ his creation ‘pours forth speech’. Speech, speech!!! and in Romans it says that ‘no one is without excuse because since the creation of the world his invisible attributes are clearly seen.’ And so since everything seems to point to the fact that God really is there, actually, here, we have a responsibility to do something about that.