so its half three in the morning and im in the house of prayer meeting with God. what an awesome privilage. There is something about praying in the night- something about there being just you before God in a big empty building. i love it.
God is really breathing on my prayer life right now. about a week ago i began to ask him to make me a lover of him. i wanted to be more than a convert, more than a follower and even more than a son in terms of my relationship with God and God has already begun answering my prayer. i have begun to meet God on a more intimate and intense level than ever before and i have a growing hunger just to be with him. not only this but it affects my intercession because i am begining to see it as more than a need from the point of view of the people concerned but a great desire of Gods heart and i want to do what i can to give God that desire as it were. now im saying God i desire to stand in the gap so that you can turn away your judgement cos i know a bit of how much it grieves you to hurt your kids and i want to lead them to you because more than anything you want to encounter souls.
God really spoke to me from a bit in Song of Songs chapter 5 where the lover comes and knocks on the door of the beloved wanting to meet with her but the beloved says ‘ oh i have got undressed for bed do i have to get up and get dressed, do i have to get my feet cold and dirty walking across to the door’? and even though she goes eventually and decides to meet her lover by the time she opens the door he is gone. the challenge to my heart was ‘what is my response when God whispers to me and i feel him drawing me. do i count the cost and decide that its worth it or do i jump up immediately because that is the very thing my heart has been waiting for and anticipating’? psalm 63 talks of the man hungry for God and it says that he is already thinking of God all through the night. he is ready to leap up.
the way i think of it now is this. of all the planets in the whole of the universe God has set his love on us. so when he looks down from heaven on this tiny pin prick of light and draws near to see all the people getting on with life, heads down and busying thenselves with their various things, i want my face to be looking up,not down at my life and whats going on- waiting, anticipating, excitedly longing for him to look and come and meet me. this is how i want to live each day. so im keep praying God make me a lover of You and ill see where he takes me!

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